Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Tuesday - MS? & No Spots

Well, I feel like something of a hermit, but only because I think I'm trying to protect those around me...I've become an emotional crazy person who feels like TingU at a moments notice...which I think is great, but annoying...LOL! Not annoying when I'm sitting in my office eating strawberries, annoying when I'm out to lunch with my coworkers and trying to smile while at the same time praying that I'm not about to chuck...can you see the beads of sweat on my forehead?

Gas is my other favorite symptom...I 'fart' on a regular basis, and burp too...the funniest thing about that is I'll feel like I need to release down below, I'll burp instead and feel better...how weird is that?

Other good news? I made it through Tuesday with NO SPOTTING! Yea! The small victories in life!

Monday, July 30, 2007

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Monday = Work?

So I had the day off today, but went to work anyway...Who does that? LOL!

On a happier note...spotting has stopped! YEA!

1 week until next US! :)

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Saturday, July 28, 2007

More Dreams

Treadmill - joking a hearattack

Treadmill - passed out

A reunion of sorts - Halloween with a cake that had a skeleton coming out of a grave on it and I hade a pie serving knife.

Saturday = Cleaning Day!

Wow...laundry. laundry, and more laundry...skipped the hand wash stuff this week...seriously dusted and conditioned the wood, polished mirrors, cleaned glass, scrubbed toilets, scrubbed floors, mopped floors, scrubbed counters, polished stainless steel, polished the cook top....and made a loaf of bread...I need a nap! *YAWN*

Friday, July 27, 2007

Friday - Recharge & Re-party

Went out late on Thursday night, slept in Friday am...went back out Friday night...not much to report!

Oh ya...another crazy dream...I was one of many people chosen to compete for a chance to organize some big house...any way in part of the competition I was caring for 2 newborns, a boy and a girl. Well, I had one strapped to my back and I was carrying the one in my arms and some of the neighbors stopped by to see how things were going and they mentioned that they had never seen so much love being showered on the 2 babies...I was so happy, I totally loved those babies! :)

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Thurs - Bliss? & A Bad Dream

Well, here it is Thursday already....yea!

I have night class several days a week and as I was walking to my car a loud thought jumped into my head..."IGNORANCE IS BLISS" it seemed to scream....I laughed to myself thinking of a friend who just gave birth to a baby yesterday. A baby she didn't know she was carrying for the first 4 months of the baby's life inside her womb. I had a hard time imagining not knowing for so long...I had an even harder time thinking about going in for an US and seeing a well developed fetus on the US screen. That thought just blew me away.

My DH must have been on the same wave length last night 'cuz I asked him what he thought about being PG and he wished we could just wake up and be 2 or 3 months farther along...I laughed, feeling the same way. Actually, I was hoping to wake up 8 months along....

Although thinking about that now, would I miss all the little things happening along that 10 month path? Hmmmm....I'll think about that one for awhile.

Anyway, I mentioned in my last post that ever since I conceived, even before I had a positive PG test, I've been having very vivid and detailed dreams. Last night was no exception, although it was strange...in essence, I MC'd in the dream, but there was so much more to it...I wasn't scared or frightened...it just sort of happened. None the less, I didn't like the dream....what PG woman would...even a non-PG woman! I'm trying not to read into this one...I'm just taking one day at a time.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Wed - TP Check & An US

Today was an all day TP check day between presentations. Ever so thankfully, all TP checks came back fair to mostly clear! Yea!



I did get my numbers from my HcG & Progest.

Here's how they stack up...

DPO 15 HcG - 213 Progest - 25.2
DPO 17 HcG - 562
DPO 22 HcG - 1936 Progest - 15
DPO 24 HcG - 3609 Progest - 35

I also had an US that seemed anticlimactic...Although what was seen was a BIG difference from 4 weeks (we saw a thick lining) 5 weeks still seemed less than wat I was hoping for....I really wanted to see some form of life...I guess I did, but it was just a sac...a nice round sac...the doctor after looking at my numbers explained that that was all he expected to see at this point...no fetal pole, and definitely not a heart beat.

I guess that's what happens in super early ultra sounds...you just get to see all the little puzzle pieces coming together one at a time and so slowly. Now I have to wait for my next US to see what will happen next. The Dr. said he'd see me in two weeks, which seems like forever, but since I have a day off on a different day of the week, they scheduled me for the Monday, instead of the Wednesday....So, it's really only a week and a half.

The Monday appt will put me at 7 weeks. Keeping an optimistic spirit, I am excited to have an US at 7 weeks, as it will be putting me past my first milestone...the milestone of making to 7 weeks...In my past pg's all of my babies were lost just after 6 weeks. This one is making it though...this one is making it all the way to 40, or close to 40 and I will hold my beautiful & healthy baby in my arms on my next birthday. YEA!

Every PG is different and this one is no exception...what's different about this one:
The Meds: Foltx, Lovenox, Prometrium, Baby Aspirin
The Dr's: Seeing an OB/GYN, Midwife, & Perinatologist
Appts: Lots of visit to Dracula & many visits and US's
Others: Vivid dreams, actually had spotting this time, feelings of hope...

In the end, I can only pray that the out come will be a happy, healthy, beautiful baby...I know everything that I'm going through right now emotionally & physically is worth it.

Third times a Charm!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Tuesday - Calls from the Dr & more spotting...

Well...I'm not sure what to say...I'm staying relaxed and saying the serenity prayer....Geez!

Spotting is watery & now a light tan. It's showing up at most visits to the restroom. Resrroom visits are still frequent...I think I have "wee'd" 4x in the last 2 hours! LOL!!!

I did get my numbers from my HcG & Progest. Here's how they stack up...
DPO 15 HcG - 213 Progest - 25.2
DPO 17 HcG - 562
DPO 22 HcG - 1936 Progest - 15

Hmmm, well, I'll be going back on Prgesterone supplements, thank goodness I have some from the last pg....and my HcG is good, but not spectacular...I'm not reading into this one!

The Dr. also wants me to see "Dracula" again tomorrow to keep checking things...*sigh*

My shipment of shots should be here today, as I took the last one I had yesterday.

I also see the Peri tomorrow...the timing couldn't be better! They will do a US to see what they can see....OH, happy thoughts, happy thoughts!

Anyway...keep your fingers crossed that all is well in all departments! Thanks!

As far as other happenings today? I give a 3 hours presentation in 90 mins....blah blah blah!

Monday, July 23, 2007

Monday - Hmmm

Today a day of running! But not literally as running is not a favorite past time of mine. LOL! I took the dogs to the park and it started to sprinkle. I was hoping for rain as I could 'see' it all around us, but it only spat on us a bit.

Upon returning to the house I noticed a tad bit of pink on the TP after a visit to the bathroom. There was also a bit of red the size of a sesame seed in some EWCM...super...ugg! *sigh* I'm trying to stay postitve.

I went to the gym to take a kickboxing class and it was so humid in the gym! Ugg! Normally the humidity here is about 5% and the gage at the house read 50%...needless to say everything was sticky and yucky! LOL! If the class was measured in perspiration, it was a good one, otherwise, I missed the normal instructor who was gone on vacation.

I traveled over to the OB's office to have more blood drawn....another needle...yea...gota love dracula...Waiting to have my blood drawn I was feeling wierd, like my cervix was falling out...it's very low right now, and that bothers me.

Met a girl from the Baby Center Board. Had a delightful lunch and time with her & her DH...we chatted and toured and chatted some more before I had to run home to do my shot! Yea! We are planning on meeting up again later in the week as well.

Went home to do my shot...yea, only 246 left to do!

Leftovers for dinner...yummy & a short bike ride = bed time!

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Sunday - Just Relax....Ahhhh!

On Sunday DH and I got up ans went for massages! Oh, this was so needed...I think I already need another one. The massage school does specials now ans then...so we both got an hour long massage for a grand total of $32! Bargain of the day! All-in-all...a great day!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Saturday - Can you say tired?

Well, here it is almost 1 pm. I didn't get out of bed today until about 10:30 am, and I could already go back to bed! TIRED! I did however make fresh blueberry & strawberry pancakes! Yum!!!

Looking forward to my next shot today! Yea! Only a small little round, reddish, purplish dot on the injection site....I'll have a whole collection of them before too long...I might have to get a tankini to cover up my belly with all my spots before too long. Yea, Shopping! Now there is something to look forward too!

Friday, July 20, 2007

Friday - Amazed By Psychological Torture

I never thought that holding a syringe in my hand aimed at my abdomen would make me feel so uneasy. Looking down at the roll of skin between my fingers made my hands sweat. I sat in the chair posed to inject myself with the drug, but my brain kept telling me it was wrong to do that to myself, that I would be hurting myself. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with needles and I knew that it wouldn't 'really' hurt, but my mind was screaming so loudly that it was hard to 'do' it. After abut 15 mins of sitting in the darkened Dr's office I plunged the needle into my prepped skin, depressed the plunger, and removed the needle. It didn't hurt, but there was a burning feeling as the Lovenox was going into my system. I guess I just knew I had to do it if I wanted to become a mother. It's amazing what we will do for our children, born or unborn. One done, appox. 250 more injections to go.

Highlight - I bought a container of Bryer's "Fried Ice Cream" flavored Ice Cream! TASTY! Thought I needed it for being so brave. :)

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Thursday - SHOTS?!

Today the delivery peps called to set up the delivery of my shots and said they were not shipping them until Tuesday of next week....UNACCEPTABLE!

Thankgoodness, with a few phone calls my Drs found 4 syringes of Lovenox at one of the offices. Yea! I'm ever so greatful! So, gota go get them so I can have my "lesson" tomorrow! :) I'm going to get poked! LOL!

Got my #'s as well...DPO15 = 213 & DPO17 = 563! Yea!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Wednesday - Dracula

Well, off to see Dracula today...more blood! Aha ha ha!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Tuesday - The dust is setteling! - 4W 1D

Wow! What a whirlwind Monday!

Today, Tuesday -

I'm back at work after a nice vacation, of sorts!

OB's office called to let me know I need to give more blood tomorrow to get my 2nd HcG number.

Peri's office called to let me know that mu Rx for Lovenox will be arriving later in the week and that they will show me how to do the injections, first on a mannequin, then on myself.
Yee-Haw! :)

Monday, July 16, 2007

Monday - The Morning After!

Morning - So I called my OBGYN’s office this am and they got me an appt to see the Perinatologist this afternoon, but in the mean time they wanted me to come in for blood work. So I went in for my blood work and everyone was so excited to see me. They took my blood then said we are having this done stat, so I will have results this afternoon…I was shocked! WOW! Then the Midwife saw me and said to go and see the tech to get an ultrasound…WHAT! WOW! She said, I know it’s early, but let’s take a look…LOL! So I had an ultrasound at 4W 0D… they found a very thick lining and a spot! LOL, I couldn’t even ‘see’ it…it was measured, but since it was so small it wouldn’t really measure…she said it was hardly ½ a centimeter! Tiny! LOL! And yes, there was only 1 this time…LOL! I do have US pics, but no way to scan them…I’ll be back later tonight and let you know how the Peri goes with my shots! Yea! Thanks again for all the prayers and warm wishes!

Later - Ok, so I'm not sure if I'm disappointed or just 'over worked' for the day...So, I went to the Peri's office and they did an US there too...ya, so I got not one, but 2 US's today...and I'm only 4w 0d....well, at the Peri's office all they could see was my thick lining...which he said was good...there machines are much more sensitive and there was no spot...bummer...so now I'm wondering what happened, but trying not to wonder...IYKWIM???? He did write me a Rx for the Lovenox, but since it was the end of the day they have to wait for authorization and I won't get that until tomorrow...So, I go back to work tomorrow and will need to leave early to get the Rx and have them show me how to do my shot...then I have another appt/US next Wednesday....the big problem here is that I am doing a huge presentation on that day so I need to leave early, like the last 45 mins, and Wed is the only day that could remotely work...ugg! I'm not stressed, just tired and I have a headache....On the bright side I did get my #'s....213. Sounds good to me. :) *sigh* I'm hungry!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

DPO 14 - TEST DAY!

TEST DAY!
A picture is worth 1000 words....but the BIG picture is worth even more! HA!

BFP!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

DPO 13 - See what happens when you test early...

Ok, so I didn't quite make it to DPO 14, but I think someone is telling me I need to wait....Why? Look and see....

What the heck is that? I'm looking for 2 vertical lines, but I get the vertical line on the Right, which is the control line, and a horizontal line from Left to Right! Huh? LOL! Only one more day and I'm using a Digi next time!


Friday, July 13, 2007

CD 12 - 2 more days...

Well, it's Friday the 13th! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Ha ha ha!

Only 2 more days until POAS day! Yea!

Today was a day to "look for signs"... Signs, signs, everywhere signs.... :)

Looked for a 4 leaf clover at the park today with the dogs...no luck.
Poked the BBS for growth or soreness...no luck.
Wished on the brightest star in the sky....we'll see.

One strange thing that did happen...I fell asleep hard core, out cold, for 2 hours...man I was tired! Hmmm? A sign?

Thursday, July 12, 2007

DPO 11 - Keeping Busy

Ok, what was the remedy today?

Living at the gym in the AM - Turbo Kick Boxing Class & Lap Swimming
Going to the Farmer's Market
Reading Magazines at the Library
Making a loaf of bread
and once again...
going to class.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

DPO 10 - Oooo, I wanted to POAS!

So, I did get up bright and early today with my DH and had my morning shot of Goji Juice....I think it's transforming my mornings as I'm noramally a sleep as long as I can person...Anyway, today was so hard not to POAS...the dozen or so HPT's were calling so loudly to me!!! I managed to walk pass them, but all day long they were calling to me...and still calling to me now...Geez! Will I make it to day 14? Just a Thursday, Friday, and Saturday away...ahhh...I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas, but I'm in charge of Christmas! Will Christmas be tomorrow?LOL!

Well, what else did I do today?
Dog Park - Woof!
Watched "Munich"
Looked up Bread Recipes
Read the Newspaper
Watched some News
Ate Left-Overs - Pizza
Researched Court Cases for a Class Presentation
Moved Furniture
Vacuumed
Met with Group for Class
Ate Left-Overs - Pizza
Class

UGG!

Will I make it until Sunday?

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Tuesday - DPO 9

So how did I pass the time on DPO 9? Shopping of course!

Now my first choice is always Saver's - a Thrift Store - but since it was not $1 day I didn't spend a lot of time there, did pick up a bag of random stuff for 69 cents and a $5 bread machine...After that I ventured to "The Mall"!!! It's amazing how quiet the mall is on a weekday, and the sales were easy to spot...My favs?
Macy's is always a fun spot to find bargains...which surprises me! They have beautiful dresses, and at 75% off, I always have to at least try an a few. Although I did try a few things on, nothing was purchased.
Hot Topic - Always great for fun shoes when on major sale, but no shoes were found...however, I did score a few fun gadgets...grand total $2.11! FUN!
Lunch - Panda Express - Chow Mein, Mixed Veggies, & Tofu w/Eggplant - YUM with a bottle of Aquafina!
New York & Co. - Love, Love, Love this store...WHY? Tall pants....yea! Gota love pants that fit! Plus a sale = $5.99 for a pair of pants for work! Yea!
GAP - Love it or hate it, it's still an obsession...LOL! More pants found here, in talls as well! Yea! My normal $60 pair of jeans were on sale for $9.99!!! Yea, I bought the last 2 pair they had in my size....plus these super cute & comfy boyfriend cargo pants...$12! FAB! & last but not least...a cute white eyelet sundress for $19...that was my total splurge...I couldn't imagine paying $80 for it!

All in all the day was fun and went quickly....

Monday, July 09, 2007

Monday - 6 days until POAS!

So, what did I do today to keep myself busy...Hmmm...

I GOTA VIRUS! UGGGG!

Okay, I didn't get it, but my laptop did...bummer! So I spent 4 unfruitful hours trying to fix it...to no avail, tech support has to rescue me. So there goes my beloved laptop....*sigh* who know's when I'll get it back.

On the brighter side I gathered up all the free formula that was sent to me and I'm taking it to The Shade Tree...ahhhh...giving feels good.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

One More Week to Wait

So here it is, I'm down to the 1WW (Week Wait) of the ominous 2WW as it is known in TTC (Trying To Conceive) circles. The 2WW is the time between "O" (ovulation) and POAS (Peeing on a Stick) to check if you are in fact PG (Pregnant)! So to pass the time I'm blogging....Yea!

Where I've been in the realm of TTCing:

TTCing - Since July 2006
PG - Sept 2006, singleton
MC - Nov 2006, D&C
PG - March 2007, natural triplets
MC - April 2007, natural
Dx - Hetero MTHFR
Rx - Foltx & Low Dose Aspirin....plus Lovnox injections once PG

Mood = Hopeful!

Time will tell!